Why do I feel like a failure?

Since this is my personal diary, I have to be honest with myself here: I am miserable at this point in my life... And I feel like a failure already...

My main problem is my weight…. Lately my social activities have been reduced to a minimum, as you can imagine. And why? Because I'm overweight! :( It's just always on my mind and I became so self-conscious about it that all I think when I'm out on the street is that everybody else is looking at me and thinking: "Just look at her!"

You know what? I just wished I had someone in my life to love and to have support from… I mean all my friends have boyfriends or husbands… I am the only one who is "the single one" who always comes back home alone. How great would it be to have someone in my life that I can relate to and just talk to… for hours… Someone who will understand me… who I can say anything I want to. Someone who will give me support and who will motivate me even more to lose weight...

I really can't take this anymore and need to do something about my weight situation ASAP.

ok at least I made 1 small step in the positive direction – I ordered this Zotrim stuff that's supposedly going to help me…. I guess that's my only light at the end of the tunnel at the moment.

Logging off for now :(